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\r\n\r\nShe smacked together cherry red lips and turned her head towards the window. Boston\u2019s underground tunnels reflected fleetingly in her polished sunglasses before she put her head back down to her phone. She lifted her sunglasses to push back ashy-blonde curls. She stared at the screen of her phone then shut her eyes momentarily. Her posture was unflinching, shoulders remained poised, neck taut, chin up, yet her lip quavered and her eyes weren\u2019t simply shut, they were squeezed tight. After a sharp inhale, she looked back down at her phone and typed a reply. A short, \u201cokay\u201d or maybe, \u201con my way.\u201d\r\n\r\nThe T jolted back and forth on uneasy tracks and her eyes darted from person to person, scanning unfamiliar faces, seemingly wanting to get lost in their stories and away from her own. Her heavy lids fell back down and she imagined better days. She dreamed of spring break in Mexico three years ago where she acquired the small bird tattoo on her left forearm. She could\u2019ve sworn she was breaking free that year. She let memories of her childhood flurry around her crowded mind. A smile crept across her face thinking of her dad, much younger back then, tossing her up and down in the living room, making her believe she could fly. Her mom, listening to music as she cooked in the kitchen until Dad interrupted her by asking for a dance. Her younger brother walking in the door triumphantly parading his basketball and a smile on his face, \u201cI beat Dad this time! By a whole six points!\u201d\r\n\r\nThe train jolted her out of her dreams and the mechanical voice indicated, \u201cLongwood.\u201d She gathered her belongings, a black backpack and small duffel, and stepped out of the train car. Walking quickly she dialed a number on her phone.\r\n\r\nShe spoke quickly and clearly, \u201cHey, Kathy? I just got off the T. Yeah I\u2019ll be there soon. What room number?\u201d Her Aunt Kathy was always in charge of any family emergency. She had an incredible levelheadedness about her that nobody else seemed to possess. It would be a comfort to see her and hear another of her timely updates.\r\n\r\nBlond curls tangling in the city wind, she turned left into Massachusetts General Hospital\u2019s driveway. Ironically, at this point she pulled out a cigarette and stopped to smoke. She had planned to quit the habit but then all of this happened with her dad and she needed a simple comfort, no matter how unhealthy. She tossed the cigarette to the ground and used the tip of her nude flats to extinguish it. She couldn\u2019t put this off any longer. She walked up to the big revolving door and entered the hospital.\r\n\r\nThe elevator took exactly twenty-four seconds to arrive. When it did, she traveled up eight floors and down a long hallway. It was the typical hospital scene; nurses power walking this way and that, doctors in lab coats updating patients. She finally entered room 815 and looked at her sickly father on the bed in front of her. He looked just as he always did, yet totally different. The peaceful rise and fall of his chest indicated a sleep she hadn\u2019t had in days. Kathy greeted her with a sympathetic smile that spoke for itself; there was no news.\r\n\r\nShe let her bags drop to the floor and took over the seat closest to her dad. She smiled briefly, then picked up his hand and rested her head on his shoulder. This battle had only just begun.\r\n
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